Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Doyumsuzluk

Fethedilecek bir kaledir o önce. Görürsün. Vurulursun. Hayran olursun. İstersin. Deli gibi istersin. Sahip olmak istersin. Her şeyi yaparsın ve elde edersin sonunda onu. Çok ışıltılıdır, parlaktır en başında. El sürmeye bile kıyamazsın. Sonra keşfetmeye başlarsın elindeki kadını zamanla. Sahip olursun. Tüm gardlarını alt eder, tüm silahlarını indirtirsin. Savunmasız kalır. Güçsüz kalır. Bağlı kalır. En güçlü kadın bile sana bağımlı kalır eninde sonunda. Ve işte tam da o noktada biter. Büyü bozulur. Dahası kalmamıştır artık. Adım atılacak yeni bir oda, görülmemiş kıyı köşe kalmamıştır.

Sırada fethedilecek yeni kaleler, önce keşfedilip sonra vazgeçilecek yeni kaleler seni bekler...





"No, it's because she doesn't need me."

ALICE: I'm going.
DAN: I'm sorry.
ALICE: Irrelevant. What are you sorry for?
DAN: Everything.
ALICE: Why didn't you tell me before?
DAN: Cowardice.
ALICE: Is it because she's successful?
DAN:
No, it's because she doesn't need me.
ALICE: Did you bring her here?
DAN: Yes.
ALICE: Didn't she get married?
DAN: She stopped seeing me.
ALICE: Was that when we went to the country to celebrate our third anniversary?
ALICE: Did you phone her, beg her to come back? when you went for lovely walks?
DAN: Yes.
ALICE: You're a piece of shit.
DAN: Deception is brutal. I'm not pretending otherwise.
ALICE: How? How does it work? How do you do this to someone?
ALICE: Not good enough.
DAN: I fell in love with her, Alice.
ALICE: Oh, as if you had no choice? There's a moment, there's always a moment, "I can do this, I can give in to this, or I can resist it." And I don't know when your moment was, but I bet you there was one. I'm gone.
DAN: It's not safe out there.
ALICE: Oh, and it's safe in here?
DAN: What about your things?
ALICE: I don't need "things."
DAN: Where will you go?
ALICE: Disappear.
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ALICE: Can I still see you?
ALICE: Dan, can I still see you? Answer me.
DAN: I can't see you. If I see you, I'll never leave you.
ALICE: What will you do if I find someone else?
DAN: Be jealous.
ALICE: You still fancy me?
DAN: Of course.
ALICE: You're lying. I've been you. Will you hold me?
ALICE: I amuse you but I bore you.
DAN: No. No.
ALICE: You did love me?
DAN: I'll always love you. I hate hurting you.
ALICE: Why are you?
DAN: Because I'm selfish. And I think I'll be happier with her.
ALICE: You won't. You'll miss me. No one will ever love you as much as I do.
Why isn't love enough?
ALICE: I'm the one who leaves. I'm supposed to leave you. I'm the one who leaves.

2 comments:

  1. Bu akşam akşam pek hoş olmadı :)

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  2. farklı yerlerde, farklı zamanlarda, farklı insanlarla hemen hemen aynı şeyleri yaşıyoruz galiba.. :)

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